It’s been a while since I wrote anything here on my person blog so I figured why not. A lot has been on my mind as of late, especially today. I have been thinking a lot about the reptile community, the way it is going and the way I think it should go, I have thought a lot about how we appear, what could make us look better and what could help to start showing us in a better light. What bothers me the most though is for the last 2 years I have given my life to the world of reptile via DRN, I have had such a great time albeit bad at times it’s still be a ton of fun, as of late my phone has been ringing off the hook, so many good opportunities are coming around and thus far I have turned them all down, they are just not related to what I want to do for the rest of my life, they are not related to reptiles.
One of these calls came in again today and really got me to thinking about things. I look at everything I have done over the past 2.5 years, I have come so far but still not far enough, I look at everything that went into what I do and ask myself “Will this ever happen?” I keep holding on, I keep telling myself “one more week one more week, then it will happen” A week comes and goes with little change to anything and this makes me wander, Excuse my french but am I just pissing into the wind here? I mean will holding on to the dream for another 25 years even make a difference in the outcome? Am I going to be sorry for passing up these opportunities for a dream that is always out of reach? These are all questions that I can’t answer however I fear the answeres and that fear holds me back, I don’t know, for now I am still holding on to that dream but at the same time I am keeping my fingers crossed that the dream will come true.
